The intensity I feel when I glare into my eyes in the mirror makes me feel hopeless. I feel unwanted in this world. People treat like I have no heart, like I’m a monster. I feel like a lunatic. I feel like I’m pressured to the limits where I can’t bear it anymore. I get locked up in my room because people are scared of me, but I’m just like everyone else! Dad tries to cheer me up but every time I look at myself, I’m discouraged because of how hideous I look. I get chained up, locked in a cage so i’m isolated from the world, everyone treats me like i’m a creep! I feel crushed, unloved, everyone rejects me because no one accepts me for who I am. I'm helpless! Sometimes I feel like being in the presence of everyone than be isolated in a cage. I’m a human being! No one deserves to be put on “display”, to be laughed at, to be humiliated, victimised! I got so intense that I clenched my fists and smashed my mirror. I guess now i’m happier knowing I don’t have to look at myself ever again. I just have to face it. I’m unaccepted in this world, my talents can’t even be shown off to the world. There’s so much I could wish for in life. But one wish isn’t enough. My life feels as vulnerable as a single heartbeat. Like, if I skip a beat…… I’ll stop. Everyone lives once. I wish just for ‘once’, I could be normal. When people laugh at me. I freeze instantly. The more upset I was, the more tears I flowed. I feel depressed everyday. Its gets worse and worse by the minute. My dad says to appreciate what I’m living for. But i can’t enjoy my life with tape muffling my screams, chains strangling my wrists, people LAUGHING AT ME! I try to hide my face from everyone around me. I try to hide the horror away from my soulful eyes. I dream. A lot! To get rid of the pain, but its hard to when the screeching on my door is very unsettling. When it was my birthday, my dad brought in a small cake with a candle lit on top. I wasn’t ready to make a wish but before i knew it, the light blew out.
